Saturday, January 14, 2012 @ 7:38 PM
Today ended in a depressing way ever. :(
I went for shooting camp, it was sucky at the start, but it turned out fine, and really fun too. The people there are very nice ;) Kudos to those who planned! (i.e. XY VV VN SL)
Anyway, moving on, my pet dog died today :(
Honestly, when the dog was very ill, and i knew it would pass away, i thought i wouldn't be sad when it pass away. But i am. :( I was not close to my dog at all, but every night i'd wait and observe the dog, make sure it still breathes, and saying goodnight to him before going to bed. But i can't remember the last time i actually walked him or played with him. But i do pet him, and i do cover him with the "blanket" (i.e. towel) when i see him shivering. But sigh, i can't believe he's gone though. But the good thing is that he'll stop shitting/peeing every where i guess. (Please don't think i'm heartless)
Anyway, my sister texted me this afternoon when i was still in school "doggie die liao" i was like omg then i called home immediately, and when i found out he was dead, i really felt :/ + :( But actually, it's better for him to leave the world actually. He's already been suffering for quite some time, especially these few days. He has difficulty eating, he has difficulty drinking, and he's like blur blur already, because he just lies/sleeps on anywhere, even though he just peed/shitted there. Sigh, poor dog right? You may ask, why didn't we bring him to the vet and put him to sleep. That's because my parents believes in that reincarnation, and that the dog should finish suffering first, so that he's next life would be better. Some may say bull shit out there, but hey, that's my parents' belief, nothing to do with you. So please respect our choice, even though i advised them to put him to sleep. But, whatever.
And then my sister cried REALLY BADLY :( Sigh that poor girl. And she offered her scholarship $$, $300 bucks so that my dog gets a proper uhm, what do you call that, the uh, to burn the dog into ashes, and bring the ashes back. See how much she actually loves the animals? $300 may be no big deal to you, but it's a huge deal to my sister, it's her freaking scholarship she got from the school for being in the top 10% in the cohort. She even made balloons and placed beside the dog. There's this in a puppy shape, and this in a sword shape. Sigh, poor sister. Looking at her, i feel really sad :( She cried very badly last night also, because she saw how the dog was suffering sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I'm really afraid of becoming old, like the dog, to be honest. It seems scary, like, how when people are old, they're so vulnerable and ill. They're no longer aware/clear of what is going on, sigh. I really don't want to grow old and become useless. But i would want to leave the world some day though, leaving on Earth for 12304925 years is no joke man! Maybe dying at the age of 50 or something would end the sufferings I don't want to become old and useless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay abrupt ending. Sorry for sucha long post.
